Anyway, where was I? ...Ah yes! Out of work and back where I started. Or was I? As I said, I was a LOT stronger now, I was medicated for my Manic Depression, I was keeping up my "brain thought re-training" that I was taught during my counselling and my 3 years away had given me the independence that I needed to stand on my own two feet.
I joined a Paranormal group that my mum and brother was also involved with and I made quite a few new friends, some great, some turned out to be not so great but non the less I absolutely enjoyed my time investigating ghosts.
I also had a few nights out and met my old school mate after joining back on the rock scene. How I'd missed rock nights. I was beginning to feel myself again. So much so, I even had a few non serious boyfriends. I know that makes me sound bad but I had been hurt by the father of my first son and I never wanted to go through that again, so I guess I was on a self destruct when it came to relationships.
Relationships was my downfall, I wanted one but didn't want the hurt that came with it. Then there was my dream... how could I ever be happy if I'd never give myself and anyone else a chance. I somehow got myself in a hole that I couldn't get myself out of...
That was until I get Dave, he was so different to anyone else I had met. He was a Buddhist and always seamed happy with his lot and always played the joker... Just what I needed! Someone to make me laugh and teach me how to accept who I was and what I had. Unfortunately (as I then saw it) he was already in a relationship. We became friends and talked almost everyday. Eventually it came out that he was starting to look at his current relationship differently, as he was beginning to have feelings for me. Now normally I'd think "Typical bloke" but if you knew Dave then you'd know that he was far from like that. I met Dave online, Facebook in fact. Dave said that regardless whether or not that we'd ever meet up, he could not continue to mislead his then girlfriend if he was starting to have feelings towards someone else. Not knowing Dave in person, I backed off a little. It took a while longer to end his relationship as Dave could never muster the enough courage to end things as he didn't want to hurt her, but eventually he did but was too honest to her when ask was there someone else, he answered me! We hadn't even met yet, let alone in a relationship, we where just friends.
Eventually we did meet and even started a relationship after a while. I did receive a few names from his ex but I don't blame her really. Only a short few months after officially going out together, I found out I was pregnant. Yes I wanted children but not this early in a new relationship! We where still at the getting to know each other stage. This was too soon. However, we accepted it and started to look towards the future.
